what do i want? this is what i want.

I am searching for someone to chase after me.

To be pathetically in love with me.

Someone to want me to a point where they bleed despair.

Someone to let me hurt them,

Just to prove how crazy they are for me.

Someone to be dedicated,and devoted.

So committed,that it almost hurts to feel their arms around me.

Someone to be my masochist,

to let me guide them into bittersweet darkness.

Someone to crawl on their knees in front of me,

and let me slay them for the sake of our endless existance.

Someone to be my muse.

Someone to kill my boredom

Someone who thinks of me too much

Someone who phones me to a point where its suffocating.

Someone whos sorrow makes me smile.

Someone who looks beautiful when they cry.

Someone to cry on me.

Someone to crawl on top of me,pinning my wrists above my head and begging me to let them in,

refusing to let me get up,i want their tears to trickle down their face,dripping off their chin and falling onto my neck,sliding down my chest.

I want someone to whisper how much they love me,while i turn my head the other way and blankly stare at the wall,instead.

I want someone to persist nonstop,until they mentally rot.

I want to refuse their kiss,I want to squirm,hiding my lips.

I dont want to push them away,for i want to pull myself away,instead.

I want to be so cruel that its attractive.

Sickly attracting them

Devious,heartless.

I want someone to tell me i look pretty,when im hollow.

I want someone to tell me how i emotionally break them.

I want to ignore and feel neglected.

I want to be someones everything.

I want someone to need me.

I want someone to erase everything they once knew,and i want to be everything they now know.

I want someone to know there is no God.

That they cant be saved.

I can be their God.They can worship me.

I want to be what someone desires.

I want to be what someone would kill to touch.

I want to dignify someones once dignified and positive beliefs to something that selfishly revolves around me.

I want someone to ache,like i've ached.

I want someone to feel like i've felt.

I want someone to cry,like i have cried for someone else.

I want to hurt someone,just to see past glimpses of myself..

I want to break someone,just to mend them.

Just to heal them,

just to kiss them.

Just to love them,after a long period of agony.

Just to hold them,like the person i loved never held me.

I want to be the only one that can make it better.

Baby,i'll make it better. Just trust in me.

Be my game. Lets play.